2007/04/08 New York
My first matzo
Egg painting
Although I cannot be considered an observant Jew I was pleasantly surprised this afternoon when my favorite restaurant for lunch, Nicole Farhi, served not only bread but also matzos.
I ate my first matzo this Passover and I do think it’s better for most people involved that my mother and sister have no knowledge of this site.
It is very well possible that my outburst of sentimentality was connected to the fact that earlier this morning I threw up four times. (When I throw up it's always more than once; the same can be said about my sneezing.)
I’m suspicious that the mahi-mahi in mussel reduction, served to me the night before at Sant Ambroeus was not as fresh as it ought to be.
Furthermore it has to be mentioned that my godson discovered today the joy of egg painting in the Dutch city of Hilversum.
His mother reported that only three children showed up for the egg painting and decorating course at the children’s bookstore that had organized the event for free.
Forgive me but on a day like this such a thing can make me cry.
I think of the ladies who own the bookstore, I think of the eggs they bought the day before, I think of the woman who was hired to instruct the children.
No irony is involved here. I do cry from time to time but never in public.
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I as well cry for events like that. Think about the children of the bookstore's lady. They see a disgrunted mom, a failed mom. Maybe this event will scar them for life (no irony).
I had an religious moment today as well; I went to Church. I rarely go to church as no one in my family does. But I felt that I had to, today.
I liked it. The priest gave a speech about heaven, and said "People always life supressed, thinking they'll go to heaven and have a nice time over there. Well I say 'LIVE NOW, DAMNED'! "(For the Dutch, the curseword was: verdorie).
I was sitting there, in church, thinking about the choir who had been practising for weeks, and it did show. I sat there, thinking about the guy in a brown vest rehersing his lines (it didn't show). I sat there, thinking I was at a free spectacle, but then people came and asked money. I didn't bring money to church.
I ate a bit of Jesus Christ, and received some holy water (in a bottle). Maybe it is my turn to bless people with the water I received.
Happy Passover, Happy Easter, everyone.
As a child I loved egg painting. I understand, it is sad to see so much good intentions and so little response. But if your godson liked it, it was worth the effort, I am sure.
@ Jan Thys, I honestly feel you deserve a medal for your positive spin to everything said and everyone commenting. While writing this I've suddenly rcome to ealize it seems we're getting to know each other. I wonder though: are we getting any closer to understanding the man himself? And what if we're part of a master plan. What if we were to become subject of research for a new novel about a woman who was thrown in prison for 'terrorist' activities, denied a fair trial, and who's only connection to the outside world is....
@ Tess
I think it is impossible to be creative without using the sensory stimuli from your environment. Brainstorms use the same principle. A group agrees to generate as many ideas as possible without judging any. Most of the ideas are complete bull. But somehow these over the top thoughts trigger a truly creative and usable gem in often the most unlikely participant's head.
I guess the most inspiring and creative people tend to experience life as one continuous brainstorm. They provoke and trigger their environment and then use the response as input for their own creative process.
So Tess, you might just have been the inspiration to a great creative work. Or a complete waste of time. The thing is, most often even the inspired one doesn't know what and who triggered the ideas in its head. And maybe the inspired one is you...
@Sander. Thanks for the insight. It is a fascinating process isn't it? We mortal beings could only but dream of finding elements of our pitiful selves reflected in an immortal character in some way. We're all human I guess, and me being one of them: I too am desperately seeking recgonition. Whichever way, I can't wait to read Arnon's new novel.
I Totally understand the crying.
When I was littly my parents organised a party in our home (they had been married for 12,5 years). They made lots of food, bought drinks and they had rented chairs. My parents were exited, but I was crying in my bed the whole afternoon, because of the thought that no one would come. Of cours there were lots of people that evening and it was a great party.
I still have that feeling sometimes. That's why I understand the Egg-crying. It can make me cry too.
I hope your Godson had a pleasant day.
Tess & Sander
Tess: When you are in jail for terrorist activities you don’t have computers, not to speak of access to the web. Dream on, I would say. (I visited a high security prison in Poland a couple of weeks ago, no terrorists there, and yes a “literary club” but no internet connection whatsoever. A few phone calls a months., that's about it. Just FYI.)
And Sander, I agree with you. The idea that I’m the master who is using the commentators for inspiration is flattering but also grotesque.
Maybe a person who used to have fantasies about a sadistic dentist is somehow attracted to the idea that a “master” is abusing commentators for inspiration. It’s all about the same: losing control. Or one could argue it is about losing control in a very controlled manner.
Losing control
The movie ‘Night Porter’ (1973) with Rampling and Bogarde is a must on this subject.
Masterplan
Me and my dog we saw a UFO once in the early eighties, but those alien foreigners totally ignored us, they showed no interest in us at all. So I am convinced there is no Master plan. Nice to be here, by the way, thank you .
It seems I'm playing with fire and need to start watching my words/working on how to bring across my point/humor. Arnon, you have demasked me for losing control in a controlled way. one of my weakest character traits . Or as Sander put it:
"...They provoke and trigger their environment and then use the response as input for their own creative process."
I think it would be quite 80's when I was used for an idea. A big Brother kinda thing. But then again, Jennifer Government.
I don't know what I'm trying to say. The sun has got me.
I'm out of control. Sex is about control. Masturbating is a nice way to have controle. But thoughts aren't. Everything is so balanced it is scary.
I think masturbating to porn is the most controlled way of having sex.