The last day with the psychiatrists in Rotterdam -- instead of seeing patients we went to a congress on philosophy and psychiatry. The Belgian anthropologist Paul Moyaert spoke about Freud’s death drive. He insisted that this death drive has nothing to do with the desire to die or the longing to return to the womb, at least not in Freud's thinking, but with an intrinsic quality of the life instinct (Trieb) itself, the inability to let go, the longing to repeat itself, the fact that to be dead is part of being alive. Not dying is part of living, but to be dead already.